Heeeyyy I missed you! Fiiinally we have internet again. At least something, while the telephone still doesn’t work…
The smell in the air, the spirit of the lovely, colorful season. It’s soo familiar every year, it’s almost creepy.
Well, it’s my birthmonth, I just turned 20 on thursday last week. And as every year it’s like I find back to myself, my new, grown, transformed self though.
In that past year so freaking much did happen. It was first of all a very mind ruled and philosophical time.
From december to march this philosophical potential fruited in very spiritual and enlightening conversations. From march on the setup completely changed, as well as the kind people I was attracting into my life. I consciously let my spirituality out of focus, in order to collect physical lessons that I missed. Though I still had the feeling I was sensing more, reading more hidden information than others – I didn’t have the constant conversation with the higher realms for example, gosh I missed that. Still it was such an interesting and transformative time.
A big part of the transformation is my boyfriend, the merging of two energy fields always turns a lot upside down and we learned a lot from each other and where creative together.
Meanwhile I surprisingly got a job in my favorite café 🙂 Weeehooo I still am soo happy about that because it’s really fun and inspiring.
New hair!! 😀 mine purple & blue, boyfriends turquoise & purple, and I got a new cut – the sides off all around ^^ I’ll post a photo for you later, I guess I need assistance to get a good picture xD
I got the tattoo (horus eyes) on my wrists, which I drew when I was 17 and wanted since then. That’s a few weeks ago and it healed well.
As some of you maybe read – I’ve been in my hometown for a week, after five years and thanks to my boyfriend who joined me I felt ready for it. It was way not as emotional and stressful as I know it could have been. If you are interested in more details let me know. 🙂
When we were back, my boyfriend and I spontaneously bought longboards. You know I wanted one for such a long time and never got to it. Though I kinda have to get my enthusiasm back, I’m very happy about it and practice nearly every day.
I fought through very old emotions, in order to heal, though dead knowledge (it is unless you use it) and the unknown. And now it’s home run time. The circle is completed ~ I turn my fruits to seeds, the next round has just begun.
I remember myself these days what unconditional love to myself is, care and discipline for my true best. Time to raise my vibration again. Now it’s up to stay aware in my body and still be fully connected. I have the feeling a lot of people will fall out of my life again, as I go back to my natural and currently required vibration. Not just people, habits, foods, lifestyle forms, thought forms… they just fall off, I experienced that a couple of times already. That’s okay… I loved to meet them and let them go again with love.
I wish you a magnificent october. It’s a time of endings, remember we cannot hold something which is meant to go. Trying so will only cause avoidable pain.
Breathe instead and thank for the experience, growth and inspiration. Know that when things end, they really are finished. Nothing get’s taken from you while you still need it.
Endings gift you with new space, time to rest a bit and consciousness of a complete cycle.
Love and abundance
the transformative writer ☮